Monday, October 10, 2016

Teaching Others Two Way Prayer

10/10/16

Lord I'm listening…

You are becoming desperate for J and S and K and all of your friends in recovery to connect with me as you have learned. You see now the validation of what Fr. J has been teaching you within the program… that listening to my voice and writing down what you hear and then actually talking about it with others that are recovering from a self centered life is critical and required if you want a daily reprieve from the misery of lust, anger, rage, and whatever other drugs or passions are trying to enslave you.

Son it is I who have placed the desire to have them all practice this two way prayer in your heart, but be careful not to let your good longing for them turn into frustration, anger or bitterness. I love each of them more than you do and you don't see me getting mad at them do you? Be patient and loving and kind and encouraging. Whisper words of encouragement and love to them, speak to the good that you see in their hearts, identify it out loud to them, show them how their longings to connect are good but misplaced. Speak to them if how you misdirected your longings and finally turned to me the Bread of Life, the Living Water and learned to feast on my presence instead.


Lord I felt an awakening this past weekend. Protect what you have stirred in their hearts Lord… don't let the enemy snatch it away like he has for me so many times, I am so slow to learn.

Ahhh, so there is your fear son, that I won't keep whispering this same message of love to each of them continually. Remember, I am always whispering love and mercy to them… I am continually telling them the most wondrous things, trust that I never stop! And also trust that I care for each of them deeply and will guide them like a good shepherd into the fold of my divine presence, love and mercy and I will teach them to listen to me as well and write it down and have two way communication. Journaling is fine tuning the radio to my voice so you can hear it better. Instead of vague notions, you hear actual words, thoughts and paragraphs this way, yes? Of course yes.

I love you son!


I love You too Papa.

Amen.
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[Bold print represents what Seb is sensing God whispering in the depths of his heart during his prayer time. Bold italic print represents what Seb is sensing a Saint whispering to his heart in prayer. NONE of this is to be taken as authoritative instruction for us all. Click here to learn more about what this type of two way prayer is and is not.]



Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Bible Study on Divine Mercy

[Seb attended some night classes at a nearby Parish where the the Pastor expounded on some of the Biblical images of Divine Mercy]

10/4/16

Fr J's words and my notes:

The Meaning of God's Mercy Part IV- Bible Images of God's Mercy

Fr. J:
A mental image can strongly determine how you see or understand something. If you have the image of a harsh and domineering father in your memory, your understanding God as Father is skewed and grossly distorted. It will actually blind you to the reality of who God is. On the other hand, the right image can enable you to correctly see and penetrate into a deep understanding of someone or something.

Ezekiel 47:1-12. The Wonderful Stream.
Then he brought me back to the entrance of the temple, and there! I saw water flowing out from under the threshold of the temple toward the east, for the front of the temple faced east. The water flowed out toward the right side of the temple to the south of the altar. He brought me by way of the north gate and around the outside to the outer gate facing east; there I saw water trickling from the southern side. When he continued eastward with a measuring cord in his hand, he measured off a thousand cubits and had me wade through the water; it was ankle-deep. He measured off another thousand cubits and once more had me wade through the water; it was up to the knees. He measured another thousand cubits and had me wade through the water; it was up to my waist. Once more he measured off a thousand cubits. Now it was a river I could not wade across. The water had risen so high, I would have to swim—a river that was impassable. Then he asked me, “Do you see this, son of man?” He brought me to the bank of the river and had me sit down. As I was returning, I saw along the bank of the river a great many trees on each side. He said to me, “This water flows out into the eastern district, runs down into the Arabah and empties into the polluted waters of the sea to freshen them. Wherever it flows, the river teems with every kind of living creature; fish will abound. Where these waters flow they refresh; everything lives where the river goes. Fishermen will stand along its shore from En-gedi to En-eglaim; it will become a place for drying nets, and it will abound with as many kinds of fish as the Great Sea. Its marshes and swamps shall not be made fresh, but will be left for salt. Along each bank of the river every kind of fruit tree will grow; their leaves will not wither, nor will their fruit fail. Every month they will bear fresh fruit because the waters of the river flow out from the sanctuary. Their fruit is used for food, and their leaves for healing.”




Fr. J:
This is an image of the immense river of God's mercy that flows out from the heart of God into the world. When the heart of Jesus was pierced by a lance, blood and water flowed forth, identifying the river's source and destination: the regeneration of the life of the world:

John 19:34-35:
But when they came to Jesus and saw that he was already dead, they did not break his legs, but one soldier thrust his lance into his side, and immediately blood and water flowed out. An eyewitness has testified, and his testimony is true; he knows that he is speaking the truth, so that you also may [come to] believe.

2 Kings 5:10:
Naaman came with his horses and chariot and stopped at the door of Elisha’s house. Elisha sent him the message: “Go and wash seven times in the Jordan, and your flesh will heal, and you will be clean.” But Naaman went away angry, saying, “I thought that he would surely come out to me and stand there to call on the name of the Lord his God, and would move his hand over the place, and thus cure the leprous spot. Are not the rivers of Damascus, the Abana and the Pharpar, better than all the waters of Israel? Could I not wash in them and be cleansed?” With this, he turned about in anger and left.

But his servants came up and reasoned with him: “My father, if the prophet told you to do something extraordinary, would you not do it? All the more since he told you, ‘Wash, and be clean’?” So Naaman went down and plunged into the Jordan seven times, according to the word of the man of God. His flesh became again like the flesh of a little child, and he was clean.

Fr. J:
These images are Divinely given to allow us to correctly see, understand and experience God's Mercy. They emphasize one point: You have to plunge in! With hope and trust, covered though you be in leprosy, you must plunge in. If you plunge into a river of water and stay immersed, you will cease to breathe and die. With this river you plunge in to begin to breathe and come to life again. We are drowning in a world of anger, violence and death. Our sins hold us captive in it.

This has a direct application to how we worship at Mass, how we approach and receive the Sacrament of Reconciliation, how we pray, how we struggle with sin, and how we deal with others struggling with sin. We will explore these here, in the worship aid, in the near future.

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My notes on his lecture:

We are not God. He does not think or act like us. We should not make God into our image, he is not an echo of us, we are an echo of him. And we are badly broken, wounded and sick so our echo is not so very accurate of the original song of love.

Isaiah 55, my ways are not your ways, my thoughts are not your thoughts.

If God's loving thoughts didn't sustain the chair I am sitting on, it would cease to exist. Let that soak in. He is everywhere present and filling (sustaining) all things in his love.

When we ignore God he does not draw away and pout, he remains a God of love who remains there, present and sustaining us just like the rest of the universe or we would cease to exist. God has no need or desire to punish us, that is our stinking thinking. The consequences of our foolishness may catch up to us yes and we see God's lack of intervention to fix our mess as his punishment, but this simply is not God's business.

God's mercy is all around us, lapping at our feet, all we have to do is step in, open our hearts and let it flow in, let the river of life flow in and through me. His love radiates continually and swirls around all of us continually, no matter our response to him. There is an infinite amount of mercy and love we are swimming in, we simply must break through this little shell of self absorption to tap into it. The only step to tapping into this is to want it, to want that love to change who I am into a creature of love and selflessness. I hate when someone ignores me I turn away, I hate when I get home tired I isolate and won't give any more to anyone.

God's business is to redeem, heal and regenerate life. [If we take this as our basic approach to scripture it greatly simplifies everything--EVERYTHING can be plugged into this theme in our Judaeo-Christian heritage]. The river of life flowing out of the temple and getting deeper and deeper and swallowing the whole world in his mercy.

There's a river of life flowing out of me
Makes the lame to walk and the blind to see
Opens prison doors sets the captives free
There's a river of life flowing out of me

Spring up Oh well within my soul
Spring up Oh well and make me whole
Spring up Oh well flow out from me
That life abundantly

This river of love started when God created everything and decided to sustain it. It was our fall that isolated us from this river... Insulated us from it quite well actually. Jesus comes to remind us of this flowing merciful river that has always been there for us. He appeals for us to receive it, to become open to it and receive what has always been there. He enfleshes in graphic detail this powerful love flowing out of his very flesh in a stream of blood and water, He wants to make it plain!! And he does.

Naaman of Syria the leper.

7 plunges into the river and he is clean! 7 is a number of completion or perfection.

Confession is a plunging into the river that is already around you.

It simply requires a desire to not be a leper any more... I don't want to act out of my woundedness any more, I want to act out of God's love and mercy that flows freely around, in and through me. I need to be healed, I have the desire to be healed, this objectifies the problem and God can pull it away.. It is outside of me and God can cleanse it. This problem is not me, it is not who I was created, it is just a problem, some stinking thinking and actions that I have fallen into. If I name it then it becomes more apparent that it is not part of me, it is just a sickness that God can heal, a stain that he can wash, an attitude that he can adjust by the outpouring of his mercy and grace.

Affirm others who are acting against God's loving way by affirming the good God has put in them, the love that pours through them. I am glad that you have love for each other... This cohabitation is not something I agree is the best for you. But I am still happy that you love each other, that you live a life of selfless giving to each other, I truly find this beautiful. I find your level of commitment to each other a good starting point and very lovely to behold.

This is a prophecy of the death of Jesus, the living water and blood flowing from the side of Christ, redeeming, healing and regenerating life. This living water flows out and laps up to the door of every human heart and is there for the drinking and being healed thereby. BEAUTIFUL IMAGE.

This river flows always up to the threshold of every human heart. God always stands with open arms like the Father in the prodigal son story - that is who God is, he never withdraws His love no matter how we respond. This river flowed up against the heart of those we love to hate as well, Hitler, Sadaam Hussein - God's love is continuous as revealed by Christ and the Divine Mercy in His sacrificial death, the blood and water flowing out from His side is that mercy and the source of the trickle here in.

We are commanded to plunge into this river of mercy again and again, ...

I stand, stand in the water
Knee deep, deep in the water
Now down, I go under
And rise up, rise up for ever!!!!
-- DA

Naaman plunged in seven times to become clean... But isn't it more a desire to grow in love continually and the sacrament is one of regeneration, of growing in love and a calling to jump in the pool.

Thank you for these images of your Mercy Papa! I love you!

We Love you son, go to work in peace today and use your gifts to serve others.


I will Papa. Mmmmmmwwwhaaa!
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[Bold print represents what Seb is sensing God whispering in the depths of his heart during his prayer time. Bold italic print represents what Seb is sensing a Saint whispering to his heart in prayer. NONE of this is to be taken as authoritative instruction for us all (unless of course it is actual scripture being quoted). Click here to learn more about what this type of two way prayer is and is not.]



Tuesday, September 6, 2016

The Magic River of Divine Mercy

9/6/16

Lord I admit I wasn't completely over my resentments against my granddaughter, my house, my dinner chores and all the other demanding things in my life. I admit I didn't completely trust you to show me the next loving thing to do and instead I swirled around in a vortex of overwhelming amounts of things to do that I cannot possibly accomplish anyway and certainly cannot do any of them without your strength.

Lord live in and through me today, I hope I get to go to mass today, but Thy will be done.

Yes son, even when you error and make more work for yourself, trust me that this too is a gift from me to teach you patience and humility. Trust that I love your children, grandchildren, your wife and your Momma and your Brother more than you but also through you a little. Trust that the little bit of my ocean of Divine Mercy that I flow through you into them can magically expand and flood through their whole lives… Remember that this is a magic River of Love and Ocean of My Divine Mercy that laps at the feet of every soul. Remember that the smallest act of love, the tiniest trickle of mercy that I flow through you to them can and will magically expand in their lives as they allow it. Take comfort in this mysterious principle of growth which I illustrated in my parable of farming the grain. I also illustrated it with nearly 2000 years of growing the Church which mysteriously is my Body. Enjoy partaking of it today son if circumstances allow.


I will Papa, thank you for your lessons on patience with my own failures and humility to fix them. Thank you for the beauty and mystery of the flowing and growing of your love.

Amen!

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9/7/16

Good review this morning Lord, love the part about the trickle of Your love through us which magically grows into rivers and oceans of mercy in others.

There's a river of life flowing out from me
Makes the lame to walk and the blind to see
Opens prison doors sets the captive free
There's a river of life flowing out from me

Spring up O Well within my soul
Spring up O Well and make me whole
Spring up O Well flow out from me
That life abundantly

Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again; but whoever drinks the water I shall give will never thirst; the water I shall give will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.

Lord I would have You the living water in me always to flow out to others, even in a trickle that magically grows into an ocean.

I love you Papa!

I love you son. We are so glad you discovered St. Joe's! [A nearby parish.]

Me too!

Amen

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9/8/16

I am here Papa. I am surrendering, quieting my heart and listening …

Darkness is just a speck in the light of my overwhelming love, joy, peace, patience and goodness. My love is taking over the world and the hater knows it and loathes it. These last waves of hate and chaos surging all around you are nothing but death spasms, his kingdom is falling to pieces as my love takes over. So he hates louder and more vigorously as my love proceeds unabated like an unstoppable flood of light, penetrating and remaking everything and everyone. It is he who will have to learn to breath underwater. For though this last generation of men and women perish, yet my Divine Mercy shall prevail and forget not the vast army of your race that are safe in my fold, they far outnumber anything you've seen on earth and they are equipped for aiding in its remaking. The transformation into Terra II is fast approaching so hold on to Terra I lightly. This version of the world won't be here long, it is already gone, it is already gone. Take hope in these words my son, and prepare your heart, train it in always being ready to do the next small and magical act of love that I show it to do, remember the tiniest trickle can grow into an ocean. We all love you son, come commune with us today if you can.

I will Papa, I love you all so much and want to be with you. Thank you for the friends you have given me here on this journey. Help me to love them well. Help me make a proper amends to T today Lord.

Amen!
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[Bold print represents what Seb is sensing God whispering in the depths of his heart during his prayer time. Bold italic print represents what Seb is sensing a Saint whispering to his heart in prayer. NONE of this is to be taken as authoritative instruction for us all. Click here to learn more about what this type of two way prayer is and is not.]



Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Look At Me, Not the Waves

7/12/16

Feeling alone, lethargic, confused, unloved, unwanted, ignored, unappreciated etc. Same old simmering fears, leading to resentment and anger likely as not. Lord I am powerless over this kind of thinking, only You can rescue me from it Lord. I'd rather have my mind stayed on You, the source of life and love throughout the day than any of that life killing stuff. You are the lifter of my chin and I miss being in your presence Lord.

I surrender also not knowing what to say to Fr. J. Maybe just a simple hand written note would be better.

Lord I submit my back pain to you today, whatever it is, another stone or whatever I give to You as a prayer for my family who I am rarely allowed to speak to concerning You… Or at least they aren't listening any more.

Help me to make some more amends this week.

I want to stay sober and in your presence today Lord… Keeping my eyes on You as the waves of chaos and life try to crush me and drown me.

I AM reaching out to You son, take my hand. I will never leave you nor forsake you. Trust in my love and my Spirit to guide you in every decision today. I am with you and remember my Divine Mercy laps at the feet of every soul and pours through the hearts of many that allow it. Look for that, look for my mercy pouring through others today and encourage and affirm it if the opportunity arises.


Remind me Lord Jesus, I will forget.

I will Son, I will be whispering it to you all day long… My voice is always there beneath the din whispering love and encouragement and guidance and gentle reproofs. My sheep hear my voice, I am constantly letting my voice lovingly go out to you, You need to listen to it INSTEAD of the other competing voices of fear, hatred, anger, violence and so on. Ignore the waves and look at me instead.

Yes Jesus, I want that. And Lord, I would learn self control of my angry knee jerk responses too, I'm trusting You to grow that fruit in me Lord.

I will and I AM.

Thank You Lord, I love You and want to do Your will not mine today.

Amen

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7/13/16

Reviewed my tumultuous past week emotionally speaking. My mind was not stayed on You Lord, I was not keeping up the discipline of constant conscious contact nor was I doing my set prayer times. Hoping for a better week, one where the peace of gazing at your face and walking on the water toward you in the midst of this storm dominate my thinking, where disturbance is displaced by the tranquility of your presence and completely trusting you to show me the next action of love.

I am always showing you the next loving thing to do, I am whispering it to you often before you ask, what is required is your attention to what I am saying. Your constant focus on me instead of the disturbances that surround you and creep into your heart. Only I can save your sons, his girlfriend, your daughters, your grand children, your wife, your brother, your Momma… Only I can save all your fellows in recovery. So simply look to me in complete trust that I will show you your part.

Pray for them and release them to my care and when I nudge you to interact with them, do it. When I nudge you to help them, do it, but with the very important attitude of completely trusting me with the outcome of those interactions. Do not be distracted by their responses or lack of responses outwardly, remember that I look directly into their hearts and can see their true responses which are largely none of your concern. These are between me and them. Trust me with the hearts of your loved ones and friends, I am the good shepherd that tends to their every need. I am trustworthy.

Lord I do want to completely trust you. Help me in my unbelief.

Amen
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[Bold print represents what Seb is sensing God whispering in the depths of his heart during his prayer time. Bold italic print represents what Seb is sensing a Saint whispering to his heart in prayer. NONE of this is to be taken as authoritative instruction for us all. Click here to learn more about what this type of two way prayer is and is not.]



Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Fear Not

Lord I still am having trouble keeping my eyes on you. I worry over things I have said and done, they eat away at me. I lay them at Your feet and admit my powerlessness over them, only Your strength and love and beauty can cleanse me of this meanness and violence. God why am I so violent and mean? How do I feel so threatened and afraid of everyone so that I strike out like a cornered wild animal? You are with me why do I still fear and attack with preemptive strikes? Lord I am sitting in these ashes asking You to heal my soul. May I be so aware of your presence and so immersed in your ocean of mercy and river of love that my soul stays at peace. 

When something disturbs me Lord, help me to quickly find its source and surrender it to your love and gaze in your face looking for my next action of love with regard to this thing that disturbs me. And when all I see is your beautiful face smiling back at me with no answer on your lips may I learn to enjoy your presence and completely trust that you will show me what to do and that even at that moment you are working things out for the good for whatever concerns my heart.

Son look into my eyes and know that I hold all things together and weave all things for the good. Lucifer and his demons have no authority here any more and the more that reality sinks in the more frenzied their attempts to hang on to ground they are daily losing to my flood of mercy. Their sandbags are pointless, their hateful gates cannot stand against the tide of my love. Outward appearances are all the news media can focus on but I see hearts longing for divine love and mercy and I have an endless supply of it. Simply abide in me, be my troubadour of light, my hands, my feet, my mouth, my embrace of love, my smile of compassion.. Be me to them, allow me to flow through you. Fret not Sebastian. I am surrounding you and within you, what have you to fear for nothing can separate us, no one can steel you away from me or me from you. Even you can't really get rid of me the hound of heaven ;)

O Lord I so do not want to get rid of you right now! At this divine instant I want to dwell in You always and never leave your side. I wish to stay mindful of Your presence more and more that I may mindfully and with great care, patience and tenderness pour Your presence through myself onto all those around me like a wonderful fountain gushing abundantly everywhere at a water park, blown by the wind of Your Holy Spirit and splashing all over everyone near it.

I love You Lord.

I love you son.

I love you Mother and all you Holy lovers of God!

And we love you Seb and pray for you.

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[Bold print represents what Seb is sensing God whispering in the depths of his heart during his prayer time. Bold italic print represents what Seb is sensing a Saint whispering to his heart in prayer. NONE of this is to be taken as authoritative instruction for us all. Click here to learn more about what this type of two way prayer is and is not.]



Friday, June 24, 2016

Focus on Jesus not the Storm

Good morning Jesus! Lord I have sensed you saying something about how common it is in this version of the world for people to be in my position. That it is just another suffering servant / man of sorrows thing.

Yes my son, I have made you unique in many ways but this is not one of them. Countless of my sons and daughters throughout history have experienced the same things you have in this area and are experiencing it today more than ever. To have a demon / oppressor / slaver exalted to a level of a god in a culture is quite common. In fact it is so common as to seem normal in your times. Consider the phrase 'Truth in advertising' … what a joke!! Seriously!?! Hahaha! I find that one humorous, that they have to legislate that there must at least be a grain of truth in their adds. So many of the promises in these adds are so oppressive and they draw people pied piper like deeper into their addictions.

The advertising world, driven by consumerist greed, avarice and acquisitiveness fuels the compulsive behaviors of so many of my children. It does this unapologetically and the compulsions themselves become mandated gods who oppress and enslave people and demand worship. Think of the entire food empire, alcohol, clothing, tobacco, coffee, soda pop, energy drinks, prescription drugs… All of them glamorized beyond reason and promising what they cannot possibly deliver. All of them oppressing and enslaving countless thousands and in each case the culture gets on board embracing them as the best thing ever. Moby said it well, everything is wrong in this area.

So you are not alone at all. Most of my children daily face a world that holds out the oppressors and slavers in their lives as good guys that are here to help them. There is nothing new under the sun. Indeed, the demons of lust and compromise are certainly two of the worst and most ubiquitous. Fear not however, these passions are no match for a soul that abides in me. For where I am, as you have both heard and seen, the demons flee. I have overcome the world. Go forth today encouraged in that truth, for I am the Truth, the Way and the Life!


Thank you Jesus for bringing this all together for me this morning! I am so grateful for you encouraging words. I love you Lord!

In light of this truth I see how fruitless it is to be resentful towards my oppressors/slavers and those who either purposely our unintentionally embrace them as pals. I am instead to focus on Jesus, gaze into his face and walk on the water towards him ignoring the waves and the wind and the lightning and the rain!
Fantastic view from underwater
By Yongsung Kim

Lord I surrender all my resentment and anger towards this world full of demonic waves, oppressors, slavers and full of people like myself who have embraced them as friends. I completely trust you Lord as I walk out onto these chaotic waters and happily ignore the demons swirling around me and I gaze on your face. Only you can keep me afloat. Only you can give me the eyes of compassion I need to see those around me that are in the same situation, struggling to look to you and like me often sinking into the water and crying out for help.

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[Bold print represents what Seb is sensing God whispering in the depths of his heart during his prayer time. Bold italic print represents what Seb is sensing a Saint whispering to his heart in prayer. NONE of this is to be taken as authoritative instruction for us all. Click here to learn more about what this type of two way prayer is and is not.]



Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Surrendering My Right to be Voldemort

Obsessing over part of someone’s body
Is as violent as making Horcruxes
Lord Jesus I am reminded of how violent Tom Riddle was. In order to get what he lusted after He murdered people to purposely rip his own soul. It is that kind of violence I do when I lust after fellow creatures, when I tear them apart and obsess over the symbols of intimacy and nurture built into their body … well, at that moment I am being Voldemort. God I don't want to be Voldemort today or ever. If only I could see what was happening spiritually with my physical eyes I would be horrified… I imagine it would be something like a dementor when they sucked the souls out of people, only I am sucking the body parts that symbolize intimacy and nurture into my mind to obsess over and feast upon them as if they could satisfy my true longings. I am horrified at what I do and now I finally am understanding why Father uses the word integrated a lot in his homilies, because what I do as an addict is disintegrate people and creatures; tear them into pieces and rob them of their loving relational connectedness with God and others.

Lord if I don't ever do that again it will be too soon!! Lord the instant the dementor like sucking starts, or even before it starts, stop me and help me name them and place them in a loving relational context and pray for them and their family and friends and relationship with you and their dreams and the work of their hands and all the good in them. Let me never ever tear another human or creature apart to fill up my misguided hunger and thirst. Then let me run to you with my emptiness and feast on You the Bread of Life and drink You the Living Water stronger than wine. Only you can fill my soul Lord. Like you said before:

Praying for these people (and creatures) and their families and their relationship with me is the biggest gift you can give them and helps you reframe them in a loving relational context. Whenever you are tempted to take from them or anyone in that way, give them a name and a family and a relationship with Me in your heart and then pray for all of that specifically. Use the five point prayer (see below) or as much of it as you can remember.

Lord have mercy on me and heal my sick and twisted mind. I want to love and give like you did Lord, not rip and tear and take.

Become one with me and you will love and give like me. This is my desire for you that you stay with me always in your heart and meditate on my presence and speak with me and take my council continually. Trust me in your meetings with Scott and Jared and every aspect of your work today. I will show you what to say and do and teach you the love and selflessness.

I do trust you Lord, help my unbelief!

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THE FIVE POINT PRAYER

Any time you make someone an object of your lust, desire, anger, bitterness, resentment, rage… PRAY FOR THEM! It is a gift to them. Give instead of take. Give them back their humanity. (The “10th Wheel” SA White Book p162)

Pray…

1) That they be purified and healed so they may be exempt from all evil
2) That they would know You (God) and love You in return
3) That they would be protected against any and all attacks of the enemy
4) For purification and healing in all their relationships
5) For a blessing on the work of their hands.







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[Bold print represents what Seb is sensing God whispering in the depths of his heart during his prayer time. Bold italic print represents what Seb is sensing a Saint whispering to his heart in prayer. NONE of this is to be taken as authoritative instruction for us all. Click here to learn more about what this type of two way prayer is and is not.]