Displacement and Fulfillment

Papa it was good to give to others when you prompted me to, I am sorry I resisted you when you prompted or missed it completely because I wasn't paying attention to You with my heart.

Lord this listening in on others.. I am powerless over it, yet I am at least starting to pray for them, better than listening for a possible lust hit without praying. Lord heal my soul of this thinking I can get something from listening to others or watching others that will fulfill this longing in my heart to connect. Whatsoever my heart now truly doth seek, Lord lettest Thou me please find it in Thee.

I am your heart's true desire and the desire of all through the ages. I have what your soul needs and it will slowly displace your inappropriate longings and fulfill you deeper within. Completely trust me with this process son, completely trust me to fulfill your deepest longings.

I will try Papa… I forget to contact you so much .. Remind me of your presence today.

I will son..

Amen

All Truth Is God's Truth

Lord it is a good and beautiful day here [in Bucharest]. Thank you for your presence and thank you for helping J and I listen to You more. I am grateful to go to mass this morning and perhaps the adoration chapel afterward to say the rosary if it be your will. Thank you Papa for always being with me. Teach me about spirituality and having the same spirit for you were speaking about this to me earlier…

Yes son, you notice that some react to the word spirituality negatively. There is perhaps another phrase that will communicate better, that is to say when two things that seem like different approaches have the same spirit. In the case of models of understanding the human condition, it can be the same Spirit of Truth, the Holy Spirit, who is everywhere present and filling all things, that is guiding and informing the best and most true aspects of these models. So the life model, the twelve step groups descended from AA, other recovery programs, all of these have the same Spirit of Truth informing them, and remember I am The Truth, The Way and The Life and no one comes to the Father except through me. But also remember that I am everywhere present and filling all things as the Holy Spirit, so I am drawing people to the truth about themselves and their relationship to me and the others continually through infinite variety of means… all truth is mine.

Yes Lord, even in the book J is sharing on self deception there is much truth in it so you are there as well in that model, though uninvited Your Spirit is everywhere present and filling all things and is NOT a tame lion!

Indeed.

Thank You Lord for helping me understand. Love You! I want to stay consciously connected to You more today than ever before… let's break a record!

I'm always up for that son, love you!

Love You too Papa!

Amen

Bucharest Here We Come!!!

Good morning Lord Jesus! I love you so much! Thank you for pointing out St. Josaphat's feast day! So encouraging to know his story on the day I am leaving to be in Bucharest! Wow!!

Yes son, it is of course no accident that this happened on this day. I am sending you as a tiny trickle of mercy and hope to magically well up in Bucharest. I have much in store for you there so listen to me moment by moment as you move forward and do my bidding there. Fret not over J, his addiction, his beliefs or anything of the sort. Plow forward with the plans I suggest and unfold for you moment by moment there. Go to mass and liturgy often and encounter those I have put their to greet you and welcome you. Share the dreams and visions of hope and mercy I have sown so liberally in your heart. Obey Mother G's task for you. Share all your enthusiasm with J and worry not about how he responds. Fret not over any of the outcomes and learn more about my son St. Josaphat.

I will Papa, I cannot remember even everything You just spoke to me, but I can strive to stay connected and conscious of what you are saying to me moment by moment. I am so excited by this opportunity to a trickle of St. Josaphat's love. He was killed for it. May I not fear but completely trust You in everything, and if there be a tiny death of rejection or even complete physical death may I rejoice in every moment of it with You Lord!

Together we can do great things, that only appear to be tiny acts of love. Do not let the smallness of an act of love deceive you son for they are imbued with magical and exponentially transforming power, every last loving thought, prayer, word or deed. So your tiny acts of love and reconciliation and mercy freely everywhere you go and do not be troubled that others cannot see me moving, after all, only Ballaam's ass saw the angel at first and was allowed to speak of it. The angel you are seeing is one of love and mercy and reconciliation and peace, sent both to promote unity and yes strike out against those who oppose it. The time of the separation of east and west has come to a close. You are my tiny emissary, the little engine that could, fret not over your small stature nor your lowliness of position nor your status as a leper for suffering from base addictions and recovering from them. I can use you son, you are learning to listen and be malleable in my hands, fear not I am with you!!

I know you are Papa and I am so happy to be your son.

Love you son!

Amen!

Light Shines Through the Cracks

Lord I botched lunch with R. with my anger over J., I resent J. and His arrogance and manipulation. I resent the Church's resistance to solid 12 step spirituality that J. seams to embody. I resent the way he draws attention to himself. Lord I surrender all this anger and resentment to You. I have no right to think such thoughts.

Yes son, focus instead on the good things I have done and do not detract from them by calling out the bad. I use his style of communication to reach a population that does not value the way of 12 step spirituality. They like preaching and rhythm and a certain style of delivery. They like straight talk directly into their lives and J. brings that. Suffice it to say I have blessed him with all his flaws just as I have blessed you with all your flaws. Do not envy the way I have blessed him nor try to force him to follow your ideas of what will truly free people imprisoned by their addictions. I use all models and approaches in spite of their weaknesses. 

Light shines through the cracks remember? And you and J. are both cracked and broken and self willed but you are both surrendering to me more and more in various ways and this is progress and allows me to heal your souls and my Divine Mercy can magically flow through you to others.

I also resent the continual chaos my kids bring here. Family nights are like a cheese grater directly on my brain sometimes. I surrender my irritation to You Lord and I do see the good healthiness in their loving interactions. I want your joy to be my strength in these situations even when I am playing Martha. Thank You for allowing me to be Mary by reading the gospel to supply some spiritual food to go with the physical. Thank you for being present with us last night.

Amen.

Papa Explains the Necessity of Continuous Connection

Good review of 2015 Journal this morning. It reminded me Lord that I really didn't start journaling your words to me until January 19, 2016, though You had been calling me to do so loudly through Fr. J for some time.

Yes son I was calling you long before that to focus on listening to me by writing. For some sensitive souls perhaps listening moment by moment is enough from the start, but you needed to write for sure, to really focus and listen. It is of course also good to be able to review it.

Remember the first few times I broke through and spoke love into your heart and you wrote it down? You thought it was self indulgent. It is not. You were trying to listen to my voice and this is a good thing. It is what you were created to do, to live in continual conscious connection with Me. Writing is a focusing the lens of the heart to see me more clearly, a fine tuning of the radio to hear me better, and yes indeed Sts. Photini, Lucy, Frederick and Faustina are all good people to have pray for you to see and hear more clearly, day by day. It is a spiritual discipline that bears great fruit and leads to that constant connection with me moment by moment, that ability to listen on the fly in the midst of life.

Yes, as Lewis pointed out the natural interactions of the Hrossa children with the eldil. It is indeed very unnatural for humans NOT to interact casually with Me, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. It is abnormal to ignore our presence or take it for granted. It is deeply deficient and detrimental to sever your connection to Me. Cordless Christianity is not really an option. It is presumptuous and assuming you can package me up in a little battery and carry me around and power your life with me when you feel the need.

The problem of course is the need is actually continuous and the connection is necessary. The circumstances of life ensure a constant looking to me for live support, guidance and direction. No spiritual maxims or twelve steps can supply that deeper need. They can indeed lead you to a place where you realize your need for continuous conscious contact but they are no substitute for a live connection.

Go live. Stay in the living stream. Stay connected. Anything else is powerless, like an electric train derailed.

Yes Lord, I want to stay in living connection with You, not presuming I can tote you around like a talisman or pocket Bible. I want this but I fail to keep the connection going, Lord help me remember to stay connected always! My moments of conscious connection with you are so few, I would reverse that proportion by your grace today, that my moments of disconnection would be few and ever fewer. Lord have mercy.

Especially Jesus as I approach my [family members and their struggles]. I surrender all this to You Lord and only seek to do, think, or say the next loving thing You suggest.

I am here son, await my voice and gentle suggestions. I am always pouring them out to you.

Lord I want to listen.

Amen.