The Great I AM Tells Me Who I am

Lord who dost Thou say that I am?
And what hast Thou given me to give to them?

1/19/16
I have made you among other things, a dot connector, a pattern finder and a puzzle solver, in short, a seer. Use your giftedness in pulling seemingly disparate things together into a cohesive whole to help others reconcile with one another and me. Like Me you are a reconciler because you share My Spiritual DNA.

Another gift I have given you is my Divine Mercy. As you plunge into its holy stream of light daily, breathe it in and then breathe it out like Aslan's breath upon all around you. As you use your gifts, let my mercy color all you do for the sake of others.

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1/20/2016
I have also made you an arranger of ideas, songs, images and prayers. You have been given an ability to see what order things should go in. Use your gifts to communicate my Divine Mercy to all you encounter.

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1/25/16
I have made you a puzzle solver, and this gift serves you well as you fix things and perfect systems. It can also serve you well as you advise and council others, however people are infinitely more complex than things and therefore great humility and reliance on the Holy Spirit must be exercised especially during these moments. You will be tempted to think you can see a solution and want to help them apply it only to find many layers of problems not easily dealt with. You will be tempted to speak instead of listen and pray and rely on Us to show you what needs to be said if anything.

Use this gift with great fear and trembling with people. Always remember that saying nothing out loud while silently praying is the first option. Active listening to Me and them may also be helpful to focus the lens. But the less you speak the more I can be heard. Leave room for Our still small voice.

Lord I am so grateful to hear your voice this morning. Not my will but Thine, Not my strength but Thine, I trust in Thee as I step into the day Thou hast given me, help me in mine unbelief. Amen.

I have begun using this simple prayer as I strive to listen to You in the morning Lord:

Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me
Jesus I'm completely trusting Thee
Lord who dost Thou say that I am
And what hast Thou given me to give to man?

Perhaps as I'm speaking with others I can use the following:

Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me
Jesus I'm completely trusting Thee
Lord who dost Thou say that they are
And what hast Thou given them to give to all?

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1/26/16
Today I heard you say briefly in the din of my disordered mind:

I have made you a snippet rememberer. You are gifted at recall of song lyrics, snatches of poetry, literature, scripture, sermons, blogs, theology, movie dialogue and visuals, iconography, melodies, and the like. Your mind quickly organizes these in diverse arrays, ever shifting them about looking for connective patterns. I've given you a very active mind so do not despise it but train it into usefulness. I will teach you to quiet it down so it can serve you well without distracting you from the task at hand. Trust me to help you do this.

Lord I believe, help me in mine unbelief.

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1/27/2016
Couldn't seem to shut the world up today. Couldn't hear what Jesus was trying to say. But then later, I almost heard Him explaining the relationship between my tendencies to blast people with monologue and my gifts to see connections.

When I see a connection or a pattern I want to share it with others, to connect with them and get the joy of having another see what I see. When I experience a new or deeper connection to God or others, I almost cannot contain my enthusiasm… I want to tell everyone about it. These are not bad things in themselves.

However, I must learn to put others and their needs first. I must learn to be outwardly silent, inwardly receptive and pray to God when I'm with others:

Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me
Jesus I'm completely trusting Thee
Lord who dost Thou say that they are
And what hast Thou given them to give to all?

Perhaps then I can listen with empathy and love. Perhaps then if God wills it I can share with them what He tells me about who He says they are and what their gifts may be to share with others.

But I must listen to them first… Allow them space to be and express themselves. It is my job to keep that space open instead of filling it with my words and thoughts. To be listening to God and others more then speaking to them or trying to gain their acceptance, approval, agreement, praise, etc.

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1/27/16
An arranger of images and words you are, share your gift as I prompt you. Seek to know if it is Me prompting rather than your woundedness. Share from the place of love and light I give you .

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1/28/16
I have made you compassionate and empathetic. In the past this vexed you at times as you treated it as an all access pass into other's heads and then attempted to control what you thought they might be thinking.

From now on use your gift differently. Involve Me for only I truly know the inner workings of others. Ask me about them and their gifts and I will guide you if there is any need to speak lovingly into that space, the space you have created by quietly listening to them speak and listening intently to My interpretation of it.

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1/31/16
I have made you a reader/cantor/singer/bard, like myself who was the same in the synagogues of my day. This is why The Singer Trilogy, The Tune, The Pendragon Cycle (which illustrated the ancient bardic mythology), Tolkien, Lewis and chanting… have been so electrifying and life giving for you. They all draw on this singing/chanting/reading The Divine Archetype (The True Myth, Myself) into images and words that I designed humans to respond to with ease.

Trust me to give you opportunities to use this gift to bless others as indeed you already have. Perhaps the stories, monologues and dialogues that have touched you should be recorded and shared.

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2/1/16
You are responsive. At times you respond deeply to what people say and things that happen around you. It is often with great joy, enthusiasm and wonder. I love that you allow yourself to be moved and your attitude that "it may be the voice of My Spirit in which case you'd better hear it".

Of course it is easy to over respond. But learning the balance between staying detached so as not to control or manipulate someone and responding to what they are saying with empathy is difficult to learn for you. Do not let your struggles in this area trouble you for I will gently guide you to learn this balance. Do not be abashed by the scolding of your wife regarding this for I have given her a gift of understanding in this area, and she cautions you from a heart of loving concern to leave people space to speak and express themselves, to leave what they are saying uncluttered for a moment before responding with your joyous enthusiasm. Perhaps the "no crosstalk" rule from your recovery meetings should be in force when someone else is speaking at least for a while until you learn this balance.

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2/2/16
I have given You myself and my peace, pass my peace and good will to others. Let my grace, love, divine mercy and living water overflow from you and splash onto all you encounter to the degree that they are willing to receive it. Don't force it on them, simply allow it to overflow into them if they are willing to receive it. If you are not sure if they are willing, ask them first.

Genuinely ask:

"Are you willing to consider a thought I have on this?"
"Do you want to know what I think about this?"
"Would you like to chat about this?"

Then wait for their answer and respect their wishes with grace.

If yes, give a thought or two without explanation. And then allow them to decide if you want to explain it further. Give them time to pause and reflect first and then ask them if they want to explore it further. Again, respect their wishes with kindness and grace.

The joy and healing I fill you with will not be received well by some. It isn't for you to persuade them to want to listen. That is the Work of My Holy Spirit and you must let Me do My work.

Allow me to overflow through you gently. Trust me to give such opportunities and do not force them on your own.

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2/6/16
I have given you a great level of technical expertise. Use this gift to serve others freely. Be ever patient and joyous with those who don't have this gift.

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2/7/16
I have given you a love for beauty. Your love for music, iconography, natural wonders, in fact beauty in all its forms points to Me. Your love for gazing on My face in the icon of Mt. Sinai monastery is also indicative of the fact that you have found the source of beauty in me. Do not inhibit this love I have given you for myself and all things beautiful.

At the same time, do not allow acquisitiveness of beautiful objects to control you. Submit all such purchases to My will and timing. Stick closely to your sobriety definition for binge buying and submit to Me and your sponsor and your wife on these matters.

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2/8/16
This morning I sensed Jesus telling me to review what He had already spoken to my heart. I did so, highlighting the bits I sensed were from Him directly in my Journal entries from 1/19/16 forward. There was so much comfort and beauty and truth there, I will return often to listen again and again to His kind words of love and gentle instruction. Praise to You Lord Jesus Christ!

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2/9/16
You are a warrior in training. You are learning to pick up the weapons of our warfare which are not carnal and deal deft and precise blows which are effective. You are learning to submit to my will, and respond to me as I teach you to respond in various battles with fear, lust, resentment and quarrelsomeness.

You are also learning to train others to do the same and you are finding much joy there. These are all gifts I am continually giving you and you are sharing them well with others. Keep relying on Me, for I am your strong right arm, your strength and fortress, and your vision.

Thank you Lord, Be Thou my vision!!

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2/15/16
You are one who resonates and responds to truth when you hear it. It moves you deeply whenever and wherever you find it, especially the truth about faith, hope and love. Tears well up in your soul because of the beauty of it all and they leak out of your eyes. Do not be ashamed of this for I have put the Spirit of Truth in you and it is He who is moving you this way. Share this deep response for the love of truth, beauty, faith, hope and love itself with those that will receive it. I will guide you as you do. Trust Me to do so for We are One this Spirit and I.

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2/29/16
I have placed in your heart a love for the whole Church, the Church Universal and a desire for its unity. As you become more one with Me this desire will only grow. You are a peace maker and reconciler and myth buster among Christians. Do not fear to use what you have learned about Church history to bring understanding and healing to people's hearts regarding their brothers and sisters in other traditions.

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[Bold print represents what Seb is sensing God whispering in the depths of his heart during his prayer time. Bold italic print represents what Seb is sensing a Saint whispering to his heart in prayer. NONE of this is to be taken as authoritative instruction for us all. Click here to learn more about what this type of two way prayer is and is not.]